Mood Swings – Hope

As most of my readers know I have been plagued with pain in my right side of my face due to trigeminal Neuralgia. In February I had a procedure to stop the pain and so far I’ve been pain-free.

I was very surprised when a week ago I woke up in a very foul mood. The Best I could achieve was to feel blah all week long. My moods swung from sad to blah all week. I thought on this a lot – shouldn’t I be in a good mood because the pain was gone? I realize that before the procedure I was filled with hope.

I was hoping that the procedure would help me. Now that it was over and it was successful I realize my hope was gone. All that was left was my MS symptoms which will never improve. They will only increase as time goes on. I spent all week feeling hopeless. I realized at the end of the week that I needed hope. Would I trade the pain with hope for no pain and no hope? No, I spent a week in the dumps because the hope that had sustained me was gone . A friend of mine always says “hope is good”. So that is what I learned last week. Hang on to hope because no matter how bad things are, it is hope that sustains us.

After coming to terms with this I found this week my mood has improved dramatically. I’m not feeling sorry for myself. I’m finding things outside myself to think about. Self pity and hope do not mix. I am much better this week and I’m glad for the mood swing back!