Yesterday is gone

Yesterday my shoulders and arms were very tight and this causes my hands to close up like a ball. I was not able to use my PC at all yesterday because of this. I had hoped to post something on my blog but didn’t because of that.

Today, I can’t remember what I was going to post. That is one problem with MS. Forgetfulness above and beyond what is normal for my age group. Last week I thought of half a dozen things for future posts. This week I can remember none of them. MS is pretty annoying.

Since I’m in a complaining mood I will share other things about MS. I have given up quite a number of things. Jogging, biking, kayaking and going for walks are a few of them. I can’t say I really miss those a lot. The thing I miss the most is cooking. I was really getting into grilling and smoking meats. Now MS has made that impossible including cooking on the stove. I really enjoyed making dinner and miss that significantly.

I don’t miss work very much. I miss the camaraderie. I miss solving real-world problems and using math to solve them. I never really liked made-up problems in school. I enjoyed solving real problems.

I always enjoyed Paul Harvey and his daily broadcast. He had such an enjoyable way of telling a story and then filling it in with the rest of the story and put everything in perspective. With this in mind I should tell how I have gained in some areas due to my MS.

I’m very well cared for and my wife and sons have become an even bigger part of my life. Their love for me makes my heart swell. I have gained new friends and met people that I never would have without MS. We live in a house whose location I enjoy more than any place I’ve lived. Again without MS we never would’ve look at this house.

Of course if I can go back in time I would choose my health even though the emotional and spiritual lessons I’ve learned exceed everything I’ve lost. The Bible tells us to “rejoice in tribulation”. I wish I could say that I do that but to be honest I know myself well enough that I would choose to avoid this trial of health loss.