I'm not sure if it's that I got older are if it's a symptom of MS. Is probably a combination. I have become a terrible procrastinator where for years I was the opposite. While I was still working there were two project engineers and five project managers. Each project manager thought their project was the most important. I was always juggling priorities but then my MS started to limit my ability so that I need to focus on one thing at a time. That was when I learned what Mañana meant. I've been told for years it meant tomorrow but then it was explained to me it means "not today". I started adopting that because I could not control my priorities. I knew what I could start something I never knew how long it would take to finish it or how many interruptions there would be. So I started saying Mañana. This worked but would often make a couple of the project managers very angry. Jamie and Don were very understanding as was my boss Jeff. Other people would get pretty angry but I would just shrug it off. I did what I could the best I could and if that wasn't good enough I would tell them go find somebody you can do a better, works for me.
Now I find I am a procrastinator and sometimes I have real excuses. But sometimes my hands quit working very well and other times I probably could post but just don't feel like it. I've been working on a series of my history but in finding it difficult to focus on it. I think it would be good for my children to read it as well as some of my readers but I get bogged down because like most stories that are real it is somewhat sad. I really really hope to get it started in September.
There I said it, I gave myself a deadline. Now I feel obligated!
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