Cat visit

The Foster of the cat we were interested in brought him over yesterday. I would say it did not go very well. The cat was very skittish because of the drive from Bettendorf and being in a carrier most of the afternoon He didn't like to be in the living room. My wife would go back and get him and try to bring them over to me. I found I couldn't pet him or scratch him and made me realize this was unfair to the cat. I'm not sure about pursuing this anymore.
It really made me feel the power that MS has over me. To be honest a cut to my denial and I felt horrible the rest of the evening. At this point in time and it seems like there's no way to pursue getting another pet. I went to bed last night pretty much devastated. I felt what MS is taken from me acutely. I missed having Macy and the use of my arms and hands more so than I ever have. I tried to be upbeat and positive but yesterday it was impossible for me.
I'm going to have to sign off now my voice thing is working very strangely today and my voice is very faint.