Part of my latest post

My last post was over a month ago. I tried posting after that but the post was so full of errors I ruined it trying to fix it. Am using a software that tracks my face and the cursor follows it. It inadvertently clicked the mouse and changes the cursor location which makes it very hard to post or correct. I am trying again but have little hope I won't have the same problems. One of the errors in my last attempt turned out very obscene and I had real problems fixing it. Well here goes
A month or so ago was a get together to celebrate our 40th wedding anniversary. I talked nonstop with so many people I hadn't seen for years. We had a great time. It was the next day I ran into problems. I couldn't speak the rest of the week and even after that I had problems with my voice coming and going. There are too many to name but I was overwhelmed with so many disappointments we have had since I knew there was something wrong with me in 2006. Every time I have thought that disease was stabilized a few months later had to find some new way to adapt to losing more capabilities. I never thought I would lose the use of my right hand, arm and fingers. I have tried to be upbeat and positive but month ago gave up on this. I'm pretty sure I will never get it back. I feel pretty stupid hanging onto it as long as I did. For a week or so I became Mr. negative. The only way out of this disease is dying. I filled my wife's ear that this kind of talk as well as my sons. My wife called the doctor and they added an addition antidepressant. She has power of attorney so I really wasn't consulted but she takes care of me so I didn't complain. It probably helped but I found anyway being Mr. negative does not really suit me. Now I am pretty much Mr. apathetic. I'm now just waiting around to get out of this body and be with the Lord. The only contact I have with other people are relatives. Other than Facebook I have allowed all of my old friends to drift away. It's so hard to communicate in person I have allowed all of my old friends to drift away. My voice software is starting to get wacky on me. I will sign off for now and hope to post again soon.