Some minor health updates.

Unfortunately some of my trigeminal pain has returned. I started having pain in my right lip so I increased the trigeminal pain med and it did not affect the pain. Since it was in my lip I wasn't sure but now it is lowered down to the bottom of my jaw inside. Increased dosage has screwed up my eyesight again with no effect on the pain. Seems that took two steps forward and three steps back. After the radiology treatment I don't think there is anything else they can do for me except shrug their shoulders and say to bed/so sad but in Dr. speak. The this is the radiologist later this month. I can't say have ever imagined pain like this before. As the day goes on I am worn out and it seems worse. I start out the morning with very little pain and it seems to increase their and other places as the day goes by. My bedtime I'm ground down. I try to say awake so I'm not awake into the wee hours of the morning. Sometimes it is really hard and I fight sleep like today. I think I am losing the battle and will fall asleep even though I don't want to.
I've been reluctant to say the latest this I am in a hospice care at home. It tends to freak people out and give them the wrong idea. I had the same idea until recently when I was put on it. Does not mean I am close to dying by the have problems and only they can keep after. It's been a real education for me. My issues are that if I get a skin infection in one of my wounds or pneumonia then it will be a serious deal. I have to admit I am ready to go. A big part of me does not want to because it will break 40+ years with my wife. There is no one like her. We have grown together over these many years that is why but really don't want to go but am prepared that is my time. I know I will be with my Savior Jesus. The apostle Paul said he was "betwixt the two". I think I understand that more now than ever before.
I did not have a good day with the dog yesterday. I stayed in my chair until my wife got home. The dog took the opportunity to lick my ankle bandages for over half an hour and a my wife got home and kept her away. I'm fairly confident now the dog does not care about me at all and it really hears my feelings. This one more disappointment on top of all the others. One worries of these.
Well I am not sure what I would ask you to pray about specifically. Thank you for all your prayers. Most evenings when I am weary I long to be home and out of this body. I know what will happen in the Lord's timeframe and not mine. Well that's all for now.