Long-awaited update

This was originally Written last Monday I'm getting around to finishing it today Monday the 28th.
I don't have any big things to post about but I thought I would do an update. I had a fairly good weekend and did not have any really really low points emotionally. Saturday I never got out of bed. Sunday I got up to watch the Rams and the Saints play. It was a good game and I suppose the saints fans forgot all the no calls that got them to the Super Bowl when they played the Vikings. After the game the coach said their strategy was to hit Brett Favre so many times that he would be afraid of rain on the roof. He mentioned the referees and later in the week the players made fun of the referees because they let so many late hits not get called. I think the referees remembered some of those comments.
The trigeminal pain is still there but it is on the edge of tolerable when I talk or eat. The numbness in my tongue pain and in my face are making it increasingly difficult to use this software. I say things to my son and I think are very clear but they don't come out as clear as what I hear. I have to accept I will not be able to the use this software very much longer. The dog barking in the other room doesn't help either. She starts barking in the afternoon when she thinks my wife should be home. She keeps barking until she comes home so it works every time, LOL.
This is new on the 28th:
I have had pretty even emotions all week. Mostly blah and not many Highs or lows. I cannot say that I am accepting the loss of my right hand but have accepted that I am completely dependent on other people for everything. This is very hard to deal with. For 40 years I have fixed things and take care of things around the house. Now my only role is to try to explain it to others. This is pretty much impossible because I am a poor communicator. I always found it easier to just do things and no one else except my son Dan ever seemed interested in learning. Now it is too late for me to teach things. I'm not sure but God's plan for me is but I just keep getting more and more isolated, spending more and more time in my bed. After all the Lord many times that I'm ready to come home. My loved ones understand this and accept it but you know there will be pain on their parts. No one looks forward to that. Couple weeks ago the cat started sleeping between my legs again and I'm not quite so lonely at night. She moved around a lot and sometimes upside down and sometimes hanging over my legs. Her movements are usually gentle just remind me that I am not alone. Well I don't have much more to say no trying to post again a couple times a week. God bless you dear reader.