It is amazing how much different an outlook one can have with out continuous 24/7 pain. My neck pain when it was continuous turned me into a blubbering baby. Yesterday my neck pain starting to abate. I think I had a stomach bug from Sunday until yesterday. I have found that when I get a cold or stomach bug it always makes my neck ache. I have had neck problems since I was in a car accident When I was 20 (I went off the road no collision with a car just a driveway embankment into a farm field). Numerous doctors have looked at it and found nothing with my spine and so have never found anything. I just have pain and have found that Aspercreme with lidocaine helps the most. When I get a fever or a virus nothing helps the pain. So continuous pain for anyone who has it understand what I mean. It tends to wear you down emotionally.
Don't get me wrong. I am and I think my wife is prepared spiritually for my passing. I don't think either of us can be emotionally prepared look part of me looks forward to getting out of this useless body and part of me of the want to leave my wife and others who care about me. This disease has changed my view of the day to day faith and the Bible teaches about. I don't believe anything can change my core faith in Jesus as my God and Savior. Jesus died for me and no matter what I go through and know this is true. The faith the Bible teaches is in two parts. One is the saving faith one has in the work of Jesus on the cross where he suffered and died for sinners who accept him. This software is to "whosoever will". There is another faith the Bible teaches about and that is faith at the troubles and trials we go through we learn of his character and he helps us in this how we learn more of God's character. There are many who mix up the two. Paul writes to Timothy of "rightly dividing the word of truth". This implies there are divisions God's word. There are so many good churches so much good ministry available and that Christian needs guidance to help with this understanding about how God's word is divided.
Well that's about all I have to say the day. I voice software and my voice are clicking today so I am able to post stuff. All I have left is a couple pet reports. There are many more stories that I don't have time to mention. Lacy the female cat is been sleeping either on my lap are between my legs almost every night three weeks. It is nice to have a little bit of companionship since I no longer available to sleep in the same bed as my wife. This hospital bed I have pretty comfy but I miss her terribly. Is pretty frustrating that I can't even move my covers and I get cold or hot and I have to wake her out. Last night was an example she had just gone to sleep I realized my shoulders were too cold. I had to decide to I wake up now wait for a couple hours. I decided now was better and I never woke her again so I think that it was a good decision.
Yesterday night my wife, me ready for bed and as I was settling in Lacey got comfy on my lap. Jordyn jumped up on the bed because she is just a jealous little girl and doesn't want the kitties to get any attention. Once my wife leaves the dog never comes back to see me but she could when the kitty was on me. I yelled at her get down and then my wife started calling her she finally got down without poking the a cat with her nose which is how she makes the competition leave so she gets all the attention. She is a pretty sweet dog or a very annoying dog. Not much in between. When she is sweet she is unbelievably sweet. I'm running out of wind so I'll sign off now and thank you for reading my blog. God bless you dear reader.
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