Cognitive MS problems

I hope to get this post in before my voice software goes wacko. I wish I could post about my pets but I'm not able to get to this PC enough because I have to spend so much time in bed. Went to the doctor on that yesterday and is coming along pretty good so I hope after next week I can spend more time in my chair.
I feel I need to discuss cognitive issues that become much more pronounced in the last year or so. I'm not looking for sympathy but just want to share and educate. My MS is the worst I have heard about. It has advanced faster than the doctor or the Internet information led me to believe.
My wife took me to the doctor yesterday there was a time when my fishing partner. It hit me pretty hard how much I have lost. There was a time my trout fishing buddy referred to me as the roadmap. If I went there once I had no problem going there again by memory. He was amazed because most of the trout streams were in obscure rural areas. There even ones in Wisconsin and I could go to by memory. I was always pretty smart.
Yesterday I had no idea where the doctors was that we went to last week. When my wife started out I wanted to tell her that she was going the wrong way. I held my tongue though because I trust her immensely. As we went there nothing seemed familiar and it was a surprise to me and I realized how much MS has screwed up my brain. I find it difficult because I say things and and they come out with the wrong thing. My brain and my tongue seems disconnected now. I am finding this difficult to accept. I am sure I will eventually because I have no other choice. I'm now along for the ride between MS and my caregivers. Everything I lose must be made up by mostly my wife and my son Matt. They have to figure out whether what I'm saying is coming out correctly or incorrectly. This makes me very angry with myself. All this is all I have breath for so I will sign off now. God bless you dear reader and I hope your life is going good.