Thought channels

I wanted to post yesterday but it didn't work out. Sunday we went to a local cider place that sold beer also. I don't like cider is just too sweet. Two beers of the up and I did not have a third. When I came home I was a little depressed. You know that song "too much time on my hands", that's one of my problems. When I daydream which is often and bind there are three channels my brain falls into.
There is the good channel, the bad channel, and the naughty channel. Naughty channel mostly involves things I can talk about because they are defiling. Much of the news lately has made me think about these things more than I should. I think about my high school days. I was never involved in anything like what I keep hearing about. But there was always a silly girl underclassmen that would go to these older people parties. They were viewed as fresh victims. Everyone seemed to annoy and these young girls would ignore the advice stay away. There were two guys in our school who were notorious for this. There was a lot of alcohol and drugs. Enough said. The longer I go fast my physical inability in this area less I think about it.
The bad channel is mostly self-pity. This is made worse because I thought the new drug that is infusions for my MS would give me use four days and I have on days of my right hand back. Is very difficult on days that I have difficulty with my voice because it is so faint. Yesterday was terrible. Today not so bad. Another thing that is bad is that even if I voice is there a cannot be heard above any background noise. That's my bad channel and one spend too much time in.
The good channel has two main types of thought. They are my meditations on the Bible and this yields an uplifting to my spirit. I wish I could say that I prayed a lot and I don't. I find when I started praying I began to daydream and cannot stay on task. I suppose I should practice more and maybe I will. There's also the channel where I think of my blessings in life. I have a great group of caregivers anchored by my wife. Have the last blessings to think about these days because I become more and more physically disabled. Loss of money problems in the future troubled me. The Republicans have changed Medicare and Medicaid and Social Security to "entitlements". This is strange to me because I've been paying and these systems since I was 16. Democrats been so far the other way they scare me to. Bill Clinton ran on a liberal platform was a moderate president. I wish we could have some moderation in our politics. Oh well, God is my provider and I need to stop looking at my troubles focus on what I do have. This is all I have energy for today take care dear reader.