Silly animal story and serious MS post

I'm able to post a little bit today. I'm here by myself with Tom's dog Atlas. The cat is here somewhere which she hides a lot of the day when the dog is here. Even though she intimidates him she still hides. Yesterday she was laying in the dog spot on the couch. The sun was beating in and she laid in the sun. He got up on the couch and was sort of close to her. He wouldn't turn his head over by her because he was afraid of her. After about five minutes of looking uncomfortable he got down on the floor and wouldn't go near. It was pretty funny
I should post something about MS once in a while. You probably know is gotten pretty bad and I am losing the use of my right arm and hand which was all I had left. In 2009 when I was diagnosed the doctor told me I would probably walk with a cane but be fine until retirement age which in my case is about 67. I've always wondered as he was blowing smoke because of he told me the truth would go out and hang myself. He's a little bit of a not so and I'm never sure about that.
I did ask him once if something else could be affecting me long with the MS that made it in advance so fast. He said possibly but anything that would do that was more rare than what I had and had no treatments either so I just dropped it.
Some of things that have helped me deal with my disease verses in the Bible. I'm not going to give the references new can look them up for yourself the one. There is one of the Old Testament that says "shall not the Judge of all the earth do right". In Romans Paul says "does the Clay say to the potter why has thou made me such?". God's overall and and God is good. If I have a disease I need to endure and keep in mind my heavenly home and the joy that awaits me seeing Jesus as he is.
There is also a quote from Shawshank redemption of "get busy living or get busy dying". This is come to my thoughts and many many times.
When I was much younger I read the book "flowers for Algernon". it was made into the movie Charlie. In it a man who was retarded got a medical treatments that made him supersmart and he fell in love with the doctor who treated him and she with him. Unfortunately the procedure started declining in the test mouse whose name is in the title. Charlie started to decline also and it was a very sad book. So sometimes I wonder about myself in this disease. I think but of my life were reversed and I started out quadriplegic at birth and as I got older I get better until in my 20s I was totally healthy. I would be ecstatic and rejoice. So what gave my disease I think of all the times I had where I was healthy and all of the good things I enjoyed. Especially my wife and children they have probably great joy and it is for them that I persevere on even though I deal with depression due to my disease. I can't say how this will and but I know that there are three outcomes. One is that I get out of this disease through death. I can also get out of this disease due to a miracle. I'm not expecting that. Jesus could return and call me home into the clouds (rapture). The true hope of the Christian is to "wait for his son from heaven". No one knows when that will be it could be today, it could be in 100 years but were supposed to have that hope right in front of us to keep us going. I pray that would be true of me as I deal with this awful disease.