We were always told growing up "if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all". I woke up this morning in a foul mood. Probably because I spent all last evening coughing and had too much phlegm built up to use my breathing machine and so I don't think I slept that great. So I will try to keep this short.
I woke up fairly angry and thinking about how I had to quit work 10 years earlier than I planned. I have disability insurance at 60% of my former pay which is good except that means that I will not even come close to my target number in my 401(k). No work no new additions. Also have to pay tax on the disability money at the normal rate. Some kind of crabby because I'm afraid I will leave my wife destitute by this disease before I've released.
I grew up with that show where the key person saying "what will be will be, the future is not ours is to see". I need to remember how loved I have but I am frustrated that I never got to my goals. They seemed so achievable and now they are not. I suppose I'm feeling sorry for myself so don't feel sorry for me I have that covered. Thanks for reading my blog and I hope my bad mood doesn't spread.
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