Restored heart

Yesterday I posted with the intention of letting people know both sides of my story. I do not feel like I should inspire people to be a good role model. If I am so be it but is not my intention. I have to say I get fairly bummed out because I should be the one taking care of my wife but it's not that way. We are at the age where for our 40th anniversary we should've been going somewhere Sandy and on the ocean somewhere. Now There's no way I can fly and I don't want to go very far in the vehicle because I need my lift. We find it difficult to go anywhere because of parking now. Finding handicap parking with the ramp space has turned into a major stressor and most of the time I don't even want to leave the house. We went to a concert Friday and mentally I was exhausted the rest of the weekend. It is very difficult on me to see how difficult this disease has been to my wife.
I have been pretty depressed lately. This morning I was reminded of the line in Psalm 23 "the restores my soul". I use a Bible app called you version. Having signed up for this I get 2 to 3 meals a day of either book offers or short pieces of ministry. I think I've read two of them in 10 years but for some reason one I got today jumped out to me. The man writing pointed out some of David's bad times and Psalms were written by him. Then he pointed out some person that quoted Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane. He pointed out something with a different slant than I have ever heard. Jesus went through all of the human emotions so we can be our great high priest. The verses really sunk in and I have to say my soul was restored from the depression I have been struggling with lately. I circumstances have not changed but my heart has been lifted up. I still struggle with wanting to take care of my wife and give her the type of life that she deserves. Have always been very active until the last few years. I hope to post some of these verses tomorrow or the next day. I have three email accounts and that email was one on my other PC. I thought it would show up on one of the accounts I have on this PC that I will have to wait. Waiting is now a middle name.