Update

Well look in my post the other day I am sorry that brought up that I wanted to hurt myself. That is not true even if I could I would not. Part of the problem is how MS works. It's not like a normal disease it is way with you and then has an conclusion. This disease is way with you and then leaves you wondering what's next. I was just blowing off steam like my friend with MS DOS. It's unlike any disease I could have imagined before I had. It takes you to a place and you think you adapt and then you find out there's more coming. Also other problems confuse us as to whether they are MS related or not. One of my MS friends as tailbone pain, severe. I have the trigeminal pain and I still wonder if this MS related.
So please don't worry about me my family has be well in control. I think this disease produces emotional states they cannot be understood unless you have MS. I didn't but now I do used to think so but now I do. As soon as you accept and adapt you find out something new is added. Produces a undescribable weariness. Like Monday used all of my time dictate to my computer. That I have problems so I save the file. Later when I went to open it I could not find. Guess Windows 10 as file management different. There is a list of recent files but for some reason it was not in their. By eyesight is poor enough they could not read anything in Windows. Like this app I can make the text am dictating large can make out most of it but the standard I can't in the menu are small. Some of them I have memorized and can find them after a while guessing where the cursor is. I wanted to post photos of our dog Jordan being sweet but they could not find the correct icon. Hope to find it next week. I don't usually post on the weekends because I can't find the time were totally silent. Take care dear reader and don't worry about me.